everyone have secrets to hide~~~ a angelic side to hide ~~~ a dark side to hide ~~~

hahaha kinda cute to put this posting title to be like that but well it is true ... everyone sure have a secret where they tell no one ... like some people keep to themself that they are gay ... they like guys , like having sex with guys and so on ... some fantansize gals .... naked gals .... raping them ... hahaha oh welll like what people always say ... if u dont think crazy stuff u are not a normal human hahaha but anyway ... yupzz ... everyone have a secret ... some have double identities ... and some did things that really surprise people hahaha but still ... somethings are better to keep to ourself .... some thing are better to left untold than to be told to others ... as some people can never keep the matter to themselves and spread to others ... amd gossip will be spread and soon ... from the process of passing throught many peoples ear ... the storey will twist and turn haha thats what people do ... so ya to me some secret is best left untold ... hahaha like i have a close friend ... he have a boy friend they were deeply in love ... he din wanna tell anyone ... din wanna let anyone know ... one day he and his boyfriend had a minor quarrel ... needed someone to talk to to lighten himself ... told his most trusted friend ... and his trusted friend told the everyone ... causing him to be teased ... ignore ... deserted by others ... close friends distanced him ... pinpointed by others ... and soon ... his boyfriend was also known to others ... same thing happened to his boyfriend ... both of them was heavily stressed and yet still deeply in love ... soon thier parents found out bout the both of them ... thier parents force them apart ... din allow their sons to go out afraid that they will have the chance to meet each other cut off their handphone lines not allowing them to contact each other ...even when they go to school ... their parents went ... soon both were depressed ... they avoided food ... water ... both were really sick ... and was amitted to hospital ... the 2 of them were in the same hospital but they din know ... but still their parents din allow them to se each other ... still refusing to take in soft diet ... the doctors had no choice but to give them glucose drip ... thier love for each other was so deep ... so deep that they even would rather bear the pain rather than to be separated ... soon ... they found out they were both in the same hospital ... and late one night ... my friend force him self out of bed ... and headed to his boyfriends room ... seeing his boyfriend laying in bed ... he went towards the bed ... and his boyfriend was woken up by him ... when they both saw each other they cried ... they slept together ... they hug each other so tightly ... and soon they came to a painful decision ... since they were unable to be together in this world ... they decided to end thier life ... they wrote a letter ... left it on the table ... holding each other hands tightly giving each other thier last kiss ... they took a pen knife ... and slit their wrist ... but somehow ... it was a maricle or rather i would say it is not the time for them to die ... a nurse came and check that room they were both in at a odd timing ... and she saw the blood ... she informed the night shift doctor ... they were saved .... but lost alot of blood ... the both sides parents felt that they had went too far ... and finally they allowed them to be together at the end ... i was really touch by my friend and his hubby ... till toda .. after 3 years plus they are still together ... they even stayed at each other house ... and were treated as a family ... to me when i see them both in real life ... they were like a perfect pair ... except that they were both guys ... but come on ... love is blind ... sometimes strange relationships do happen too ... for me ... even if i know my friends are gay or lesbian i dont mind ... cos my policy is if u choose the people u would like to mix with ... people will also choose whether to mix with u or not ... so ya ... till now my friend... after his almost death situation ... he told me his story ... it touch me ... and it showed me that ... people can die just because they love each other too deeply ... oh well guess i wrong abit too long for today hahaha guess it is time for my to kick the haye hahaha so good night and fair well~~~

sotong is me and blurrkid is my mother hahaah

hahaha heartbroken i dunno who are u but i got a feeling u maybe darren or wen dell hahaha anyway i dont feel any of m di di cannot make it just that u are not free to contact me hehehe u are my di di u are welcome to flood my phone hehehe but not at the time i am in my sleep pls hor hahaha oh well it has been more than a month since i ever blog haha cos was kinda busy and many things happened so ya i seldom had time to even blog hahaha oh well my friends are going into ns to burn thier time like what most say lol anyway i hope to spent all the time i have with my friends and so on and dont like the ns thing but i always ask my self wor why have such a thing such as ns ? shouldn't it be like something u do on ur ownwill and so on and not must be a must ? hahaha oh well it is the GOVERNMENT that suggested some idea but i guess some of those in the paliment dont even join ns before oh well it is not for me to comment hahaha but to me ..... forcing someone to do something they dont like will result in unhappiness , hatred and disrespect.... therefore i ma know why sometimes singaporean really feel like leaving singapore is cos they dont wanna have thier kid suffering and wasting thier time ..... having study since the day of birth till the age of maybe 18 or even some 21 ? than waste 2 precious years in a so call serving the country dont sound rather positive huh ? rather a waste of time .... oh well hope that more people will oppose to the so call serve the nation thingy and mke it a optional case bah cos to serve the country there is many ways ... rather than just serving the ns thing there is also other ways to help ... like ? helping the country improve economically and others ... oh well .... i just hope to spent my life to the happiest and my life will just end before i go and serve the country who dont even help us in anything .... hiazzz life is sad enought like that already ....... haizzz and still the government still have such stupid rules...... it is the same theory as forcing a human to eat shit haizzz ..... oh well enougt of saying such thing =( well i think alot of people is thinkin of the same thing but still some wanna be in ns but still there are some who dont .... so just hope the governement consider bout such things where they allow us to choie to join or not too ......